October 27, 2016

DEPLOYMENT and being M.I.A.

It's been almost a month since Aaron has been deployed. These next 3 months need to go by f a s t.  This has been the hardest thing on both of us. But I know that its times like these that we become stronger and I know he will be back before I know it. Cannot WAIT for that day to get here. 

It's been a bit since my last blog post and it sucks that I've let life get in the way of something that is very important to me. It's been an adjustment preparing for Aaron's deployment, planning our wedding and then him being gone. It's crazy. I feel like everything has been a blur and I'm still trying to catch my balance. 

One thing I have realized since the word "deployment" has entered my world is that yes deployment is so hard on the spouse that is having to go. They leave their family, their entire life and their job literally becomes their entire life for months and months at a time. The spouse is left at home to enjoy the comfort of their home, they still get to cuddle their animals and they still have their normal day to day life and in my case, which isn't at all the case for most military spouses, I still have my entire family here! SO blessed to be here with my family! However having my normal life, isn't normal without Aaron. Everything seems incomplete and lacking in some way because he is such a huge part of my life. What I'm getting at is that there are some days that I just want to lay in bed and cry because it gets tiring trying to bottle it up and act like everything is just fine. That doesn't make me weak. That makes me a human. There isn't anything wrong with feeling upset about him being gone.   He's my favorite human, why wouldn't there be some days that I want to cry about him not being here. Anyway, I say all of that to say this is H A R D you guys.

As far apart as we are, I already feel how much closer this experience has brought us together! I can't imagine having this life and making it through this with anyone else but Mr. Aaron Evans! He is truly my ROCK and I am so thankful that I get to do life with him! Ladies, if you're hoping and praying that there is some special amazing guy out there for you. Put those worries aside and know that God has someone SO special for you! Be patient and wait on him. I PROMISE YOU it's worth every time of feeling lonely, rejected or hurt!! 

And one last thing before my lunch breaks comes to a close, all of you military families that have gone through deployments time after time after time, you ROCK and you all are so encouraging to me being a newbie! Thanks for being awesome!

THE COUNTDOWN is ON!!! Less than FIVE months until our W E D D I N G !

Bye now,
bB***
P.S. to my lovely blog readers I promise since I am finally getting into some sort of routine, you will be hearing from me more ofter! <3 Thanks for reading!!

1 comment:

Kandice Poirier said...

Hi my darling friend! I am so sorry you have to endure the deployment part of this lifestyle. I spent so many nights (and days) crying missing Andy... so did our little girls. It is so hard!! I am praying for you and for Aaron's safe return. I wish I was closer to you so we could spend some time together! You're such a sweet friend & I'm so happy to know you. xoxoxoxo